the-sins-of-our-youth asked: Hey so I wanted to tell you that I struggle with cutting too, and if you EVER need anyone to talk to EVER, I would love to try to help. I know I just sound like every other person on here, but I really do want to help. Also, you are so beautiful, don't let anyone ever tell you different.
Love Is Louder Than The Pressure To Be Perfect.
I have a lot of explaining to do… From March 7th to March 9th I was in JDC, the detention center, jail. From there I was ordered, by the court, to be sent to a psychiatric hospital in KC. I was there from the 9th until the 20th. I then returned to JDC until April 3rd. After almost a month away from home, I was released. There was talk about my mental state still not being good and them sending me to a therapeutic group home, but that idea was trashed after another psychiatric evalutaion. I’ve been home since April 3rd, but on a limited probation. That means I’ve had to be with someone at all times. I couldn’t ever be alone. I also couldn’t see or talk to my friends, and they took my phone. Also, at the hospital, they put me on resperdol, an antipsychotic drug used to treat scyzophrenia. They didn’t diagnose me with that though. The hospital diagnosed me being bipolar and having post-traumatic stress disorder, which my parents don’t understand why they said that… I do..
From the last picture I posted of my arm, I went to the hospital for that and got 28 stitches and they healed a lot better than I expected. Though I still have scars covering basically both arms now.. A little depressing looking back and honestly, embarrassing, but I’m weathering the storm. I’m currently looking for a job and trying to join a softball team. My life has been a lot better and happier since my time away and I hope to only be positive from here on out. Also, I’m living by the motto, “Love is louder than the pressure to be perfect”. I know my friends and family love me no matter what, so I shouldn’t feel the need to punish myself the way I do when I make a mistake. I honestly believe I’m done with self harm. It’s had a hold on my life for over 4 years now, and now I’m over a month and a half clean and I plan to stay that way.
Anyone out there struggling, hold on. Don’t give up. Believe me, I’ve been where you are, but you are so much stronger than this and you are beautiful. If you ever need anything, message me.
bettybluntblowin asked: So is that really your arm with the deep ass cuts? If it is how can you go that deep? I go deep but i've never had them get that wide so just wondering what you do.
Yea its my arm. And I don’t even realize how deep I’m going when I’m doing them..
Anonymous asked: please stop.... if not for you, for those around you... please. you are worth something. you have meaning in this world. You should let yourself live long enough to feel something other than pain.
thedarknesstrembles-deactivated asked: Why is someone as pretty as you hurting yourself? You are God's creation. I know self harm is something hard to overcome. I went through it my self...But its something you should not do. It does not benefit you. Hope you feel better. If you ever wana talk im here. God bless you.
Anonymous asked: honey if that really is you in those pictures you need stitches okay, trust me. please please get some help x
